fringe selvedges

The silence of man
In the face of true pain
Is the measure of humanity
In your race to be sane.

Nonsense, I say
I will not
Stay away
I will wait
I won’t hate
And always never
Be OK.

Nonsense, says I
From far
Far up high
I will choose
Not to lose
And always never
Say I tried.

Taking great chances
Talking down and round
Tactically revoking
God’s almighty sound.

Jumping around
In and out of time
Moving ever faster
To the shine of a star
Aligned.

Timeline changes
In fractions of degrees
Are never really noticed
Until your conscious self agrees.

Demons inside
Anger out
Watch me closely
Hear me shout.

Demons outside
Anger in
Watching deeply
For my next sin.

Demons within
With anger about
Watch me carefully
Before time runs out.

Answering the evident
Actual betrayal
Is a feint of forgiveness
When your mindlessly frail.

Never again
Will my body betray
Never will I wake up
And say
Not today.

Never will I answer
To my inner afraid
Never will I shake
And make
A mistake.

Never will you see me
Losing my way
Never will they whisper
He’s trying
The wrong way.

i feel my madness
creeping through
i feel its anger
chasing you
i feel the hate
i feel the pain
i feel I’ll never
again
be sane.

Suicide stands
From deep within
Are contingency plans
For when you can’t win.